Unplugged

I just finished my sessional exam today. Today's Surgery paper was just too shitty. Many of the question are so insignificant (as in it never came out in recent past years) till i don't even know what is it. Anyway, the battle is over as of now, but the war is still on. The final battle is in exactly one month time! In this one month, i must prepare myself mentally and physically and emotionally and spiritually equipped to face the battle. One month is not much at all, considering the number of books i have to "revise" and "remember". I must pass this final year exam!! i want to get rid of study life, once and for all (at least till my specialist course maybe). I dun wanna stay in this stupid India for another 6 months. One month of hardwork and no life! Just one month!!


This one month of study break will be further helped by the departure of my dear laptop. The Dell XPS M1530 has served me very well for the past 2 year (i still remember it reached me right on Christmas eve of 2007, it's the gift i bought for myself). Now, i'm getting tired of it not being able to play HD movies smoothly on my 22" LCD monitor. I think the extra resolution is too much for my nVidia 8600m GT graphic card. Also, those games that i bought can no longer be supported in full details and resolution (except 2004's Half-Life 2). Plus, i like to install all my favorite games in my hard disk, and 200GB for me is just way too little. Imagine my 1TB external HDD has 0% free space left. I need more power, more speed, more graphic rendering, more space (and obviously, more money).


Signed, Sealed, Delivered, I'm Yours
So ya, i decided to list my laptop on eBay. Today, after 1 week of listing, it is sold for a whooping price of Rs 29500 (incl. shipment), which is roughly RM2100. It was a great deal, as it is exactly half of the original price of RM4500 2 years ago. I think it's a good way of getting the maximum out of laptop with the same value. See, i bought my first laptop Acer with RM4000, sold it after 2.5 yrs for half price, and i got this Dell with RM4500; now i sell it again for half price. I used the same RM4500 and get 2 laptops, at the same time have a powerful machine to keep up with my workload and gaming. Instead of buying a laptop, and wait for it to get spoil after 4 years, at the same time suffering from all the frustration of using slow and outdated machine. So tonight, i will be busy backing up my files, tomorrow reformat, pack it nicely and ship it with courier.


So, for the next 2 months, i wont be having a computer with me. I can study full time without any distractions. Besides, i can use the extra time i normally on exercising in my room and also play guitar, which is to me more healthy and less time consuming. I wont be able to keep up with latest football results, tech news, games releases, play facebook, chat thru webcam, or send emails (and obviously, wont be updating my blog for at least 2 long months). My iPod will play a BIG part in my life now, cz i can't live without music.

Homeward Bound
I will be going back home on 8th Feb 2010, till 12th Mac. I'd already bought my ticket online. I have all the plans i gonna do in this coming long holiday.
1) Build a new Small Form Factor gaming PC, costing nearly RM5k.
2) Exercise, or maybe go to gym to lose my tummy and build up muscle.
3) Have surgery on my hyperhidrosis problem (endoscopic thoracic sympathectomy), it'll cost around RM5k. I'd ask the doctors in HUKM, and he say i can do it at the OPD as day case.
4) Celebrate chinese new year 2010! Yo, the year of Tiger!!
5) Spend time with family and friends.
6) Eat, eat & eat.
6) Play all the PC games collection i bought: they're all greatest games of all time, all well worth buying and collecting and playing numerous times.


Hello Goodbye
That's all folks. This is it.
Say goodbye to my Dell XPS laptop. Say hello to my future super strong gaming SFF PC.
Say goodbye to surfing, chatting & gaming for 2 months. Say hello to textbooks.
Say goodbye to final year MBBS. Say hello to internship.
Say goodbye to India. Say hello to Malaysia.

OK Computer

Many things crosses my mind whenever i'm too bored of studying.. I keep thinking of what i wanna do next year as an intern in my one last year in India. I wanna buy this buy that, take plenty of leaves and travel around India as much as possible, or even go to South Africa for World Cup..
Recently, i bought a 22" LCD monitor, Dell SP2208WFP. It's the monitor i've been eying for the past one year, and so far i'd not found any new monitor model better than that.. This model is way too good in terms of performance, features and value till it's being discontinued, and luckily i found a second hand one on eBay India. The monitor is 6 months old, hardly been used, and still look brand new without any problem. Actually i bought the same monitor in July when i was back in Msia, it's still unopened in my home and i'm supposed to bring it over next year, but then i decided against it and wanna get one more over here.. The reasons I wanna have a monitor are so that my desk will be cleaner and have more space for books,; i can watch my HD movies more comfortably; have a better desktop experience in my daily windows applications; and also due to peer pressure cause many of my friends in the hostel already have one.. The monitor cost me Rs9000 (RM650), and i'm really happy with its performance.


Recently, Liew's laptop died and while he was going to buy a Dell desktop, i advised him to buy all the parts separately and custom build one, which he did. His new PC cost around Rs80000 (which is almost the same price as the Dell desktop he's gonna buy here but more than doubled its performance). His PC is extremely powerful (with Intel Core i5 CPU, ATI Radeon 5850 GPU), and is undoubtedly the strongest in our whole hostel right now.
Now, my heart is pumping to build one for myself too. I'm really pissed with my 2 year-old Dell XPS 1530 laptop cause it can no longer support any of my games in native 1680x1050 monitor resolution smoothly, even watching HD movies lag sometimes.. All these while i was planning to buy a Alienware m15x next year, but when i think about the price of it (RM6500) and how well can it support new games in full details, i decided against it.. If i build a desktop myself, it'll only cost me less than RM4000, and i can assure it will support all future games in full details in the next 3 years and will not die on me for at least 5 years. It's totally a bargain compare to a laptop, considering laptop's life span of 3 years.. Average laptops has a 30% of total failure rate after 3 years, and also each manufacturer has different failure rate. Check this out:


My plan now is to sell my laptop in eBay India for around Rs30k, scrap my budget for a PS3 and its games which is another Rs30k, and use the money to build a Small Form Factor PC gaming machine. I want a really small and cool looking PC case cause i'm bored of those tower casing and it's more challenging and fun building a SFF PC. Also, i can easily bring it back to Malaysia when i leave this place. I'd already made a list of all the components that i'll be getting when i go back Malaysia, and i'm really looking forward to it. Below is Thermaltake Lanbox Lite and Lian-li PC-V351 small form factor casing which i'd been eying:


specs i have decided on:

CPU: Intel Core i5
RAM: G Skill 2000Mhz 4GB DDR3 Dual-Channel
MOTHERBOARD: ASUS Maximus III Gene
PSU: Corsair HX620W
HDD: Western Digital 2TB Cavier Black
GPU: nVidia GTX 275
HSF: Noctua NH-U9B

So right now, my sole aim is to study well, do well for my exam and pass all subjects in one go, reward myself with a new PC, and then fully enjoy my last year in India as an intern.. May God bless me..

Bitches Brew

Whenever i'm in my posting, the word 'bitch' and 'pussies' will keep lingering in my mind.. This is going to be my one last posting as a MBBS student, and it's Obstetrics & Gynaecology, and it is one load of a hell.. Everyday something stupid happens, some of us will get screwed by the "b****y" lady prof.. Things had gone from bad to worse again this morning, which i wont elaborate here.. I really hate OBG postings, and it had also made me lose some interest when i open my OBG books to study.. i really cant stand that almost all (except a few) OBG profs are so unpredictable and PMS all the time..
Our end posting exam will be on the 30th Nov, which is the latest among all the units.. Some units have even completed their end posting today and can concentrate fully on their preparation for sessional exam, but we're still stuck in this stupid posting. Every morning is filled with fear of getting late or get screwed out of nothing or losing attendance. Life sucks under OBG posting.. Even though i know this will be our one last moments of posting as a student, and we're supposed to treasure all the experiences that we have there, but still, every moment of the posting is like living with an unexpected timed bomb, it can explode any time..

My final sessional exam is exactly one week to go.. I realize there are so much more to study.. The text books are like never ending.. There are just too much things new to me.. Everyday, i'd spent most of my time studying like a bitch. I think this is the period my knowledge in medicine improved the most among all my 4 and a half years of the course.. One dilemma i'm having is that many times when i flip through the pages, even though i know the topic is not in the question bank, i will still read it thoroughly just for better understanding of the subjects and for future use. I know it's time wasting in the exam point of view, but i think that particular 'extra topics' are more important in my daily life, they're not those big diseases but they're cases of which i will encounter more... Actually if I'm going to be really exam oriented and analyze the past years well enough, I only need to cover half of the book to pass. However, by the time i become an intern, i will not understand or remember a single thing.. The most important part of medicine is understanding the basics, as many of my profs stressed on.. If you do not, then there's no way you'll succeed as a good doctor.. So now the irony comes.. I have only 1 month plus before my university exam, should i spend more time understanding the subjects, or be strictly exam oriented and memorize only the FAQs.. How i wish i have more time studying properly, and pass out being a doctor who know the subject well.. But then again, if i was given more time, will i be studying seriously, or will i be too relax and start fooling around? (which i think most likely i'll be the latter.)
One more thing is, i really hate this place. Many things over here pisses me off.. If i fail this uni exam, i'll have to stay for another 6 months. Yes, i'll be much better in my knowledge within the 6 extra months, plus i do not mind staying longer provided i have the money to spend and all the entertainment and friends that i have here; but on the other hand, I also want to pass out my exam in one go and leave this stupid place asap.. So ironic..

Also, my classes officially ended today, but i din go cz i'm too sleepy due to the mental pressure in posting. Now, i do not need to wear formal shirts, go to class via the crappy school bus, walk under the hot sun, and listen to boring lectures and seminars, or get scolded or thrown out due to misbehavior, just for the sake of attendance. To me, lectures are over-rated. To me, taking attendance is stupid and time wasting. To me, sleeping in class or reading other books is a student's right. To me, yawning is only a reflex to take in more oxygen. To me, chewing gum in class helps students to be awake. To me, morning classes are meant to be bunked. To me, wearing T-shirts and short pants in classroom is totally alright.
Who have attention span of 1 hour sitting quietly in the classroom? (except those really nerdy students). My attention span is only 30 mins max, after that i get restless. I think most of my time in lecture hall are spent on sleeping, or day dreaming, or studying by myself. I'll only pay attention if the lecturer is really good or the topic is interesting and important. Yes, now i no longer need to suffocate myself inside classrooms (hopefully in my whole life) anymore, woohoo!
"We don't need no education,"
"We don't need no thought control,"
"No dark sarcasm in the class room,"
"Teachers leave us kids alone!"

Revolution 9

The Name of The Game

Last night we had a small gaming session in Wilson's room.. He just only bought a PS3, and had instantly bought some latest games.. Warrie also brought his Street Fighter IV and FIFA 09 for us to play.. I was able to witness new games like Batman: Arkham Assylum, Uncharted: Drake's Fortune, Kill Zone 2, which are all awesome; Later at night, we all played FIFA 09 and SF4.. The whole night experience is just unforgettable, and made me feel sick of playing PES 2009 and my 'slow' Street Fighter IV i have installed in my laptop..

Now, i'm feeling something is missing in my life. I am missing FIFA 09, and looking forward to FIFA 10 (the first time in my life i rate FIFA higher than PES), and finally, i made up my mind to get a PS3 Slim, sooner or later.

After some long thinking, thorough research plus a bit of peer pressure, i'd concluded that PS3 console is a much better choice for gaming instead of a gaming PC. With PS3, one can do almost everything in terms of entertainment. You can play all the latest high end games without any lag, play online with friends, earn trophies, watch BluRay movies, use it as a media center to view photos and play music on HDTV, browse the internet etc etc.. Even solely for BluRay player purpose, PS3 is already super worthy compared to other expensive BluRay players on the market. The only short coming is that i have to buy original games for PS3, which cost around Rs 2-3k each..
However for PC, i have to upgrade my PC at least every 2 years to keep up with the latest games, and each upgrade will cost around Rs 20-30k (which is like the price of 10 PS3 games already), while a PS3 console only cost Rs 15k and it last for many many years.. For PC, even though i can get all pirated games free from torrent, but i will loss the privilege of trophies and online gaming.. That why, i myself do buy 'original' PC games as collections (cz ori games in India is dirt cheap). Besides, there are so many games that i can't play till today on my laptop, like GTA IV and Crysis, when other ppl with PS3 already finished those games long time back. In addition, PS3 has a lot of exclusive games, and also games which plays much better than the PC version.. Like the FIFA 09 and GTA IV, PS3 version beats PC version hands down..


The newly released PS3 Slim is 30% smaller, 30% lighter, less power consumption, offer 120GB hard disk, comes with DTS-HD MA and TrueHD technology for BluRay, at a much cheaper price ($299). What a steal!!!

If it wasn't because i'm now in my vital final year, i would have definitely bought one right now. But back to reality, study is still more important, and i just have to wait till next year internship to get it.. I think i will chuck my plan of changing my 2-year-old Dell XPS 1530 laptop, and get a PS3 instead, which offer so much more in gaming purpose and is also so so much cheaper than a buying a new high end laptop.

Be super patience Chee Chung, study hard, pass your final year and reward yourself with a PS3 next year..

Medicine end posting

Tomorrow is my Medicine end posting exam... It'll be my last contact with Medicine before my final exam.. By this time, i'm supposed to be perfect in all aspects: CNS, CVS, Respi, Abdomen theories; elicit the signs; speak in Kanada, make summary of case; give differential diagnosis; know the treatment etc etc..

But still i feel i still dunno anything and cant even talk to patient.. Am i fit to be a doctor like this??

I often think why am i not in Malaysia where i can speak in my own languages and get more interest into medicine, instead of being stuck in India, facing aliens with their foreign language and also finding myself always super unwilling to be in the hospital cz of the stupid Wenlock shit plus urine plus detergent smell... aihhhh......

Dr. RV Bhat, MV Prabhu, Venugopal and 1 more prof will be coming for my group... they're mostly super nice person.. hopefully things turn out fine...

For the past 4 days, it's been raining non stop.. Monsoon is supposed to be over by now, but the second phase suddenly came out of no where... The reason??? Mother Earth is dying!!!!
Weather here is either extreme hot & sticky OR extreme wet & sticky.. they both sux.. Anyway, i still prefer rain to sun... i miss the weather in Europe when it's sunny hot but cooling, ahhhhh...

The Perfect 10

Today i'm pissed after my OBG paper.. i studied and covered most important topics and only left out few small topics which i have no time to read, and they came out... Imagine the whole book of Obs n Gyn which they took 2 and half years to teach, shrink into 1 paper of 8 questions with total of 30 marks??? WTF!! i cant answer 3-4 questions, means it's literally doomed... Damn all those Obs n Gyn bitches who set the paper... They can continue live on with their excessive exposure to pussies and hormone imbalance (which explains all their their ultra stupid mood swings)

Today Michael Owen scored winning goal against Malaysia team during Man Utd Asia tour.. The match ended 3-2. And i read from news that Sir Alex Ferguson said Owen's goal is very good, a typical Owen goal with fast reflexes and an eye for the goal.. When i watched the highlights??? It was a rebound towards empty net... Come on, even i can score that!!

I still have a "Perfect 10" Owen poster in my room back home in Kuantan, wearing a Liverpool jersey... He was the reason i started watching football, more so supports Liverpool.. He was my favorite player, my perfect number 10.. But then he left to Madrid when Benitez came, fine, we won the Champion's League without you.. Then when i thought you were coming back the next season itself, Newcastle snatched you away with 16 mil, fine, your team u served for 3 years got relegated.. Now, to Man Utd? Fcuk!! As a true Reds legend, you go to our rival?? I was super pissed off and felt betrayed. Some more it's on a free transfer, and my Man Utd friends here all felt so proud they signed a classy finisher without paying a cent, a true deal.. Yeah right!! I know he can score few goals, but (luckily for us) he is no longer a player he once was.. He lost his pace, which was his biggest asset.. he lost his techniques, and also his physical approach... the only thing he's left now is his instinct in front of goal.. Fine, we shall see what Man Utd can get from him.. Next season Man Utd is fcuked.. Without Ronaldo, Tevez, their attacking strength is cut to half, plus Rooney is a "striker" who has to hide in the midfield cz he bloody can't score.. hope Owen get injured for more than half season, then continue to suck off Man Utd's 50k per week wages for him, and most importantly, do not score against Liverpool, the club that made him who he was....

No good luck to you, my childhood hero..

Singin' In The Rain

For the past 1 month, it had been raining and raining and raining.. I delight in rain, cz i really hate the hotness in Mangalore.. Rain make me feel comfortable wearing formals and white coat, help me save on air-con fee, prevent my palms from sweating, and gives me good night sleeps..

I'm singin' in the rain,
Just singin' in the rain.
What a glorious feeling
I'm happy again.

I'm laughing at clouds
So dark up above,
The sun's in my heart
And I'm ready for love,
...for love.

Let the stormy clouds chase
Ev'ryone from the place,
Come on with the rain
I've a smile on my face.

I walk down the lane
With a happy refrain
And singing,
Singing in the rain,
...in the rain.

Having exam now... Tomorrow is my Obstetric & Gynaecology paper... Next Monday Surgery, then Wednesday Medicine, then on that day evening take flight to Bangalore, then 11pm fly to Singapore by Tiger airway, then fly to KL, then fly again to Kuantan (home sweet home)...

fast forward>>>> Then straight away go cut hair, then take photo, then do passport, then on Saturday go KL with family, then shop for suits and shoe and bag and buy new hand phone, then Monday go do Visa, then come back Ktn, then play here play there, shop here shop there, meet some friends, eat sleep at home fast forward>>>> then on Friday itself fly back to Bangalore, then Saturday fly Mangalore, and on that day itself i'll be back sitting at the same place facing my laptop in my hostel room...

What a "well planned" and foreseeable and hectic and useless holiday..
p/s: If not because of the expiring passport, i'll never go back Msia for the bloody 8 days vacation

Remember The Time

If you ask me which is my favourite music video of all time, chronologically i would say:
1. Thriller - Michael Jackson
2. Smooth Criminal - Michael Jackson
3. Black Or White - Michael Jackson
4. November Rain - Guns N Roses
5. One - Metallica

Top 3 spot goes to the King of Pop, who died last week, and his memorial service was held 2 days ago, so touching and emotional...

Without him, we would have no Pop.. We won't be hearing any pop songs of the 90's like Backstreet Boys, Westife, Robbie Williams, Spice Girls, Alanis Morisette, Avril Lavigne etc...

Without him, we have no Hip Hop/Rap.. There's be no Justin Timberlake, Black Eyed Peas, Outkast, Akon, Lauryn Hill, Eminem etc..

Without him, we will not see any black people singing and performing their vulgar and explicit songs in front of MTV.

Without him, we wont witness any dedicated dances and choreography, story-like, high cost music videos which graced the MTV...

Without him, we have no Billie Jean, Thriller, Beat It, Bad, Black Or White, Heal The World, You Are Not Alone; no moon-walk, robot dance, anti gravity lean, crotch-holding moves, powerful screech....

I liked Michael Jackson all these while.. I grew up watching his videos, and recently get to know more deeply about his songs and liked most of them... Every time i watch his videos, i will still be utterly amazed by the dances and my limbs will start moving around imitating his moves in vain. My favorite song of him - Billy Jean, where different instruments each playing individual tones, came together in perfect harmony, and then added in a voice and chorus so simple yet special, the end result is just awesome and you'll never get tired listening to.. I wished music today were like that...

To those who dislike Michael Jackson, saying he is a pedophile or a freak, shame on you for not knowing anything about music.... A person who really appreciate music will overlook all these stupid rumors and concentrate on his music and dances, or simply himself as a person..
p/s: here is one very gruelsome and interesting link bout his monstrous downfall process:
http://www.anomalies-unlimited.com/Jackson.html

A black, born in a time where blacks are looked down and discriminated most, as a super talented prodigy who, along with his brothers Jackson 5, touring around Motown to perform relentlessly, and then created his personal special moves, shot to stardom, broke the barrier between blacks and whites, stood up against racism, presented as a children loving figure, sold the most number of albums, and took the world of music into a whole new level...

All those negative news, to me, are just conspiracy towards him, as "South Park" says, to "bring down a damn rich black guy, out of jealousy"... Even if the news are true, so what? His nose falls off, so what? Waved his child at the balcony, so what?? A pedophile, so what??? Took plenty of drugs, so what? It's not like anyone from the music industry is a saint-like perfectly-nice person... The reason behind all these is merely "living around the wrong person and environment" It's a pity in the end he could not prevent himself from the 'downfall' of his own personal life...

However, I do not feel extremely sad for him dying at the age of 50.. Compare to Elvis Presley, John Lennon, Jimi Hendrix, Kurt Kobain, Freddy Mercury, Bruce Lee, who all died in a much more tragical way at a much younger age, when they have so much more yet to offer up in their sleeve, Michael had lived a longer life, and no longer contributing anything to the world. I thank him from the deepest of my heart for how he'd graced the music industry and gave us so many good music to listen to and watch at. He will be remembered forever...

R.I.P. The King of Pop

Summertime Blues

The new earphone
Early last month, i bought the earphone that i'd wanted for a long long time. Last year, this earphone was not available in India. Then during Dec when i went back Msia, it's not even in the market. Now at last, my dream came true. This is my beloved Sennheiser CX500!!

According to reviews, this is considered one of the best 'consumer level' earphone. However, i liked this above other model of the same league cz it has volume control, which i find it very handy when wanna talk to people without removing the earphone. This baby cost me Rs4000 (RM290), which is much cheaper than Malaysia's price cz back there, a CX400 already cost nearly RM500, not to mention CX500.

Last year, my Creative EP630 died on me after merely a year. This Sennheiser CX500's sound quality is simply AWESOME, much better than the Creative one!! It produces extreme clarity and fidelity plus deep and powerful bass which won't overwhelm the clarity of the sound. Many a times, i feel like i'm listening to many of my favorite music for the very first time as the dynamic is more and i can hear more details which was unheard of. I find this earphone totally live up to it's price value as its performance also outweighs the price, plus it's considered cheap compared to professional brands like Shure or Etymontics which cost more than RM1000,

Nowadays, the widespread distribution of free mp3 over the internet and cheap musical products had destroyed the whole music industry. Consumers are too ignorant about music quality, opt for the cheapest alternatives as long as they "hear" the music. The truth is, people 20years ago are the ones who really "appreciated" musics. In order to listen to a song, they have to spend very very much on a vinyl disk or a CD, then play it with an expensive vinyl player or hi-fi system. Today, all major brands opt to mass produce cheaper music products, completely compromising the sound quality, as long as they can sell more. Besides, internet had been the main source of music for 80% of music lover to download free low quality songs. All these has led to the down fall of human's acoustic ability.

To those many so called music lovers out there who always boast bout their music library size and think they know everything bout music, but "hear" them thru laptop speakers or the stupid Apple iPod earphone, it's time to reconsider what you're actually hearing!! Go for high bit rate mp3s and start "appreciating" your music via high end products. Expose yourself to the true 'sounds' of the songs, the way it's supposed to be heard, not just merely "hearing' it for the sake of hearing.

This earphone includes 5 extra pairs of ear pads, a small pouch, a cable winder & a clip-on. The perfect companion for my iPod classic. Threw away my Apple earphone straight away.

A picture with Caryn's iPod nano together with the pink color Sennheiser CX300 i bought her on her bday. "Big Koko & small cute Mei Mei"

The Wall
Last week, i requested the hostel management to repaint my room cz after almost 4 years, the walls are already dirty. When the painters came, i secretly asked them to paint blue for me while i pay them money and asked them not to tell the matron, but they don't agree. So, in the end, i decided to paint myself secretly.

I started buying all the brushes, roller, paints, tray, glove and thinner, preparing myself on Good Friday morning to transform my room. After 5 hours of non stop painting, the job is done. My hand is super tired and the next day itself got tendinitis on my right thumb dy. sobs. But it's worth the effort and money spent. I'd always wanted my room to look super nice and cozy and cool and clean. Those equipments that i bought only cost me around Rs500, plus 5 long hours of effort, i can have 2 years of nicer environment for me to study and sleep and watch movies and play games etc.. In this hot summer season out there, i've got the blues in my room :)

The newly painted wall:

The 4 corners view of my room:

God of This City

Jeremiah 29:7 says: "Also, seek the peace and prosperity of the city to which i have carried you into exile. Pray to the Lord for it, because if it prospers, you too will prosper."

In my last post, i'd been super critical on the situation in India, particularly Mangalore. But after some weeks of listening to my pastor George Matthew says, i begin to look at the whole thing in a different perspective.

Physically, things seems bad and stupid. All those Hindu's extremist action is just so annoying. Many Indians around me are just so frustrating. But, i wasn't sent here just to finish off my degree and leave this place. God has a purpose, a well crafted and purposeful plan for me. Believe it or not, there is not a single "safe" place on this earth. But the safest place you can be at is wherever He wants you to be, always at the right place at the right time. Thank God i wasn't in Mumbai when the terrorist attacked. Thank God the church where i was worshiping wasn't attacked. Thank God nothing happened to me when those Sri Ram Sena ppl threatened to trouble all couples they see.

On the other side, spiritually, things are seemingly much better, and still going according to His ultimate plan. At first, those ppl attacked numerous churches and injured many pastors and church members, but none of the believers stumbled. In fact, their resolution and passion for God grew stronger and firmer. Christians from all over India, as well as whole world, prayed hard for those sufferers. God answered their prayers, restored them and brought them to a new spiritual level.

Later, God diverted those ppl who're supposed to attack the churches to a local pub and beaten up some innocent indian girls. This incident is so sickening that it shocked the whole world and angered the whole educated and high class society from every where. People from all countries stood together and condemned these stupid people. From only chirstians community, god has enlarged the scope of hatred towards these devils to all secular community.

Now, there is confusion in enemy's camp. The government BJP, who was all these while supporting them, do not know what to do anymore. Things they'd done are too embarrassing. God even single handedly changed some important post in the government from those extremist kind of man to the secular and responsible ones.

It is obvious God is making a revival in this city, as well as in this country. Believers here had been praying day and night for God to claim this land and take it to the next level. Look at China, before they were so strong, enormous number of Christians suffered so so much but still fought on for the country's revival. And now, they're one of the leading countries in the world. Look at US, they were the strongest country in the world for centuries because their ancestors feared God and look into God in every policy they make. But now, their people are neglecting God more and more and they're suffering so much right now.

The general election of India is coming soon next month. We all have the responsibility to pray that God will take charge and choose a secular and open minded and transparent government for this land. We could not afford to let the Hindu extremist to take over as things are going to turn sour, especially towards all Christians and Muslims in this country. We, students from other countries, have to take on the responsibility to pray endlessly for the revival of this beautiful land full of incredible people and unique cultures and extraordinary history. We do not come here just as a stepping stone to our future. We came here for a purpose, to learn something and more importantly to make a difference in this place. We must stand in the gap, so that corruptions will be broken down; useless traditions will be stopped; dark markets will be exposed; and all people from all caste will be able to taste the country's wealth. If this place that we're living now become prosperous and peaceful, we too, will be prosperous and have peace. What else is better than that?

God bless India.

I Want To Break Free

Malaysia to India
It had been exactly one week since i came back to India.. I came back 10 days later than all my friends, and had skipped a numbers of classes, but it was all worth bunking for the extra fun and food in Malaysia.. I had a very very enjoyable holiday. I met many many old friends this time and even celebrated Chinese New Year with my family which i had not been able to for the last 4 yrs. Of course it's sad to come back to again, but that's my calling, plus i have some extra reason to be back there as well, hehe.. On the very first moment i stepped foot on Mangalore, Indians had already pissed me off. What happended is that me and Hong Ling took a cab from airport to town. After dropping off her, i asked him to fetch me to my hostel which is only 1 km away, but this useless driver asked for double cz he said it's considered two different destinations. Of course i wont give. So i scolded him and only give him a small amount of money, not a rupee more, not a rupee less. This is Indian stupidity No. 1: Money-Mindedness

Mangalore pub attacks
2 days before i came back to Mangalore, there was a scary incident: 40 young men went into a pub near our college on Saturday afternoon and started beating up a few young Indian girls, slapping them, hitting them, kicking them like an animals, assaulting their boy friends, molesting them, all without any reason. The police arrested 23 of them. These brainless people are backed by the ruling political party of this state. 2 days later, all 23 of the violent maker was bailed out, without any charge. A more sickening thing is that a big bunch of crowd were outside the police station cheering for them, giving them celebrated ovation and flower rings. When interviewed, those fuckers still said they'll do it again if there's a chance and they do not regret their deeds. Even the Chief of the Police said he would have beaten up his daughters is she is found in a pub. The head of the attack group - SriRam Sena, said the girls deserved it. What the fuck!!! Which era are we in now? Is going to pub wrong? Is it any of your business? Where's the respect for women? Where is the law? What are all the money-sucking useless dumb ass police doing? Just few months ago, many churches are being attacked in Mangalore and many other places, then the terrorist attack in Mumbai. Now this violence against women. India is horrible, especially for us students who study here. No wonder India is still such a poor country full of useless people. Indian stupidity No. 2: Lawlessness.


Medical Postings
I am now in Final Year MBBS.. I passed all my 3rd year papers, really thank god.. Final year will be the most busy year, with 4 subjects - Medicine, Surgery, Obrstetrics & Gynaecology, and Paediatrics. All the books are super super thick. I'm now posted in Medicine in Wenlock Govt Hospital.. Before this, i was really hoping i would be posted in KMC College Hospital. I don't care if Wenlock has more cases, more, more patients, more exposure, more practical practices; i just hate to be in a stinky and dirty and disgusting environment through out my 1 and half month medicine posting. I have to change my shirts every single day, my lab coat twice per week because of all the urine smell stains plus all kind of pathogenic microorganism under the sky on my shirts.. Most of the days, i have to take cases in the hospital after my afternoon class and can only be back at night time. Imagine my day starts at 8am every morning and finish only at around 8pm.. It's shitty. Life sux. Besides, this semester is full of seminars, so occasionally, we have to prepare seminars to be presented in the lecture hall, means even more extra works at night.

Lectures
The lecture hall is another big let down. It's newly a constructed and enormous lecture hall, situated at the roof-top, and equipped with 2 projectors. However, it is not air-conditioned!! Imagine in India's hottest season of the year; from 2pm till 4.30 pm; Monday to Saturday; 250 students vs 1 single professor, after lunch... Of course, i will feel agitated, restless and sleepy. How do they expect the lectures to be effective and conductive? No way!! Some times, i myself will go to class with my short pants when every single classmates are on their full long sleeve formals. I know it's wrong, so what?! I don't even care. I mean, this weather is considered "summer" don't Indians have some common sense and allow the students to wear short pants and thin t-shirts? This is Indian stupidity No.3: STEREOTYPICAL

Slumdog
Friday night i went to watch a movie in theater with Caryn and Karthik - Slumdog Millionaire. Directed by Danny Boyle, it is a piece of gem crafted by the combination of Bollywood and Hollywood. It is a movie about a slumdog Indian, who is the lowest and most worthless class of Indian, made his way to win the game show "Who Wants To Be A Millionare?" How he did that?
A. He cheated
B. He's lucky
C. He's a genius
D. It is his destiny
Every single questions of the game show was written in his life experience, from small to young adult. His experiences guide us through the most comprehensive, real, shocking truth about life in India. The extreme poverty; religious fights; policeman's scariness and uselessness; caste system; illiteracy; urbanization, love. Everything is portrayed excellently well and impressive. Of my high movie taste, i dare say this is definitely one of the best movie i'd ever watched. It is very much similar to another of my all-time favorite - "City of God". The only difference is that "City of God" is more bloody and sets in Brazil. "Slumdog Millionaire" language is mostly in English, with some Hindi in the beginning. It won Golden Globe Awards, and was nominated for 10 Oscars, including Best Picture. I highly recommend this movie to every single one, truly a must watch!!



Hectic Final Year Life
My life have been really hectic and tiring in this first week in college. At night after dinner, i can only aboe to study a few pages, but i would prefer to just sit on my chair and stare at the laptop, listening to music and watching some movies. I don't even have the energy to study anymore. Food over here still sucks as ever after my tongue had been so accustomed to Malaysian cuisines. Weather here is scorching hot. My throat had been a bit of uncomfortable since i came. Besides, local Indians here are "stupid" and annoying. The political members here are all hopeless. Day by day, my temper gets shorter; my body got sicker; my shirts get dirtier; my intelligence gets lower my fashion sense gets worse; my humor gets lesser . I really can't wait to leave India. I can't wait to get rid of my final year of studying plus another year of internship here. Every minutes spent here feels like a year to me. The only good thing over here is my room; Caryn; and my fellow friends. I can't wait to fly away from here fast. God help me.

Hooray! Hooray It's A Holiday

Hello there, I came back to Malaysia on 20th Dec, actually 5 days before the actual date of my final practical exam day, but since i already bought all the domestic and international flight early on for the 20th date, i do not want to change the ticket and waste money on penalty and ticket rate differences. I took the hard and lonely way - appealed to authorities to pre-pone my practical exam date. Thank God, after some talking to this and that profs, my plea was granted. So, i was back 1 week earlier than my friends, ate more Malaysian foods, spent more money and gained more pounds than any of my fellow friends in India.

I came back with Caryn, and this is the first time we flew back to Kuantan together. It was a very nice journey. At KLIA, we both ate dim-sum at Eden for RM100+, which is the most expensive dim sum i'd ever taken and i think that was the only time i'll ever take. On 23rd, my family and I went to KL for Christmas. I met my super cute cousin sister who's only 1 and half year old. One year ago when i saw her, she was still super tiny and forver sleeping. Now she can jump, walk, and make noises. On Christmas eve, nothing much was done at my uncles's house, we wished one another and then i was playing PS2 with my bro. There goes my silent night holy night. The next morning on christmas day, we all attended a Christmas lunch organised by my uncle's church at Damansara. It was an OK lunch, at least it's more meaningful better than whatever count downs, partying, boozing, Santa Claus etc. Then that very afternoon on 25th, my parents went back to Kuantan first due to some work, while we 3 brothers stayed few more days at my Uncle's house, until 30th Dec. During that one week, all i'd done is shopping and eating, spent around RM1000 easily shopping for shirts and shoes etc, plus my Uncle and Aunty fed us like pig, and my belly is forever growing outward.


In Kuantan, it's forever raining. That kind of gloomy feeling that clouds over my mind. Cannot do any out door activities, except going to East Coast Mall like super frequently. I'd never been to the mall when it opened. I liked the mall, at lesat it's more high-class than the stupid Berjaa Megamall. Megamall is so dead now. Since back home, i'd only be able to meet up with a few old friends. Most of my friends are already graduated and living in KL working, leaving me alone still dealing with books, damn...



Last Sunday, after me and my family came back from church service, Caryn suddenly called me and asked me out. When she reached my home to pick me up, a super familiar face is sitting inside the car too. Bastard Ki Yang didn't tell me he was coming over. A surprise? Very much did. So me and Caryn showed him around Kuantan, eat here and there, visit this mall that mall, watched Outlander (stupid movie) at Megamall, and went to Teluk Chempedak like hundred times (what to do, Kuantan not much places to go). Ki Yang came for 2 days, and he just went back today. It was a very good time we 3 from India travel around Kuantan together.



Yesterday, my 3rd year MBBS result was out. Thank God, i passed!!! Hooray!! My Community Medicine marks is exactly on thin line between fail and pass. If it weren't God's grace, what else could it be. I was really relieved, and my parents are happy too. My dad bought me the Littman stethoscope which i was supposed to pay by myself. I saved RM250, hehe. Besides, my mum treated all of us for dinner. The stethoscope is bought by Caryn's doctor uncle, so it's cheaper, Most significantly, it is Littman, and it's navy blue in color, weee, unlike all the boring blacks everyone is using. Really thank god that i passed, cz next year-final year, there'll be 4 subjects, and it's the most hectic year of MBBS with super dupper thick text books of Medicine, Surgery, Paediatrics, and Obstetrics/Gynaecology. Phew!!

OK, enough for now. Am so tired after whole day going here and there with Ki Yang and Caryn and her parents already. My mum n dad somemore asked me to go jogging tomorrow early morning. They kept complaining bout my super big belly, aiks.. what to do, i was non stop eating all the time in Malaysia. Every night, i sleep with my belly extra full. You can see a big bulge under the blanket when i'm on bed.. I was really nice coming back to Malaysia, eating good food, hearing familiar langauges, spending time with family and friends... I love holiday, that's why i myself further extended my holiday for 8 days (on 30th Jan). So, basically i'm the first who came back and last to go back India, hehe, my holiday is the longest!!

Happy New Year of 2009 and have an enjoyable holiday to all my friends!!!