Bitches Brew

Whenever i'm in my posting, the word 'bitch' and 'pussies' will keep lingering in my mind.. This is going to be my one last posting as a MBBS student, and it's Obstetrics & Gynaecology, and it is one load of a hell.. Everyday something stupid happens, some of us will get screwed by the "b****y" lady prof.. Things had gone from bad to worse again this morning, which i wont elaborate here.. I really hate OBG postings, and it had also made me lose some interest when i open my OBG books to study.. i really cant stand that almost all (except a few) OBG profs are so unpredictable and PMS all the time..
Our end posting exam will be on the 30th Nov, which is the latest among all the units.. Some units have even completed their end posting today and can concentrate fully on their preparation for sessional exam, but we're still stuck in this stupid posting. Every morning is filled with fear of getting late or get screwed out of nothing or losing attendance. Life sucks under OBG posting.. Even though i know this will be our one last moments of posting as a student, and we're supposed to treasure all the experiences that we have there, but still, every moment of the posting is like living with an unexpected timed bomb, it can explode any time..

My final sessional exam is exactly one week to go.. I realize there are so much more to study.. The text books are like never ending.. There are just too much things new to me.. Everyday, i'd spent most of my time studying like a bitch. I think this is the period my knowledge in medicine improved the most among all my 4 and a half years of the course.. One dilemma i'm having is that many times when i flip through the pages, even though i know the topic is not in the question bank, i will still read it thoroughly just for better understanding of the subjects and for future use. I know it's time wasting in the exam point of view, but i think that particular 'extra topics' are more important in my daily life, they're not those big diseases but they're cases of which i will encounter more... Actually if I'm going to be really exam oriented and analyze the past years well enough, I only need to cover half of the book to pass. However, by the time i become an intern, i will not understand or remember a single thing.. The most important part of medicine is understanding the basics, as many of my profs stressed on.. If you do not, then there's no way you'll succeed as a good doctor.. So now the irony comes.. I have only 1 month plus before my university exam, should i spend more time understanding the subjects, or be strictly exam oriented and memorize only the FAQs.. How i wish i have more time studying properly, and pass out being a doctor who know the subject well.. But then again, if i was given more time, will i be studying seriously, or will i be too relax and start fooling around? (which i think most likely i'll be the latter.)
One more thing is, i really hate this place. Many things over here pisses me off.. If i fail this uni exam, i'll have to stay for another 6 months. Yes, i'll be much better in my knowledge within the 6 extra months, plus i do not mind staying longer provided i have the money to spend and all the entertainment and friends that i have here; but on the other hand, I also want to pass out my exam in one go and leave this stupid place asap.. So ironic..

Also, my classes officially ended today, but i din go cz i'm too sleepy due to the mental pressure in posting. Now, i do not need to wear formal shirts, go to class via the crappy school bus, walk under the hot sun, and listen to boring lectures and seminars, or get scolded or thrown out due to misbehavior, just for the sake of attendance. To me, lectures are over-rated. To me, taking attendance is stupid and time wasting. To me, sleeping in class or reading other books is a student's right. To me, yawning is only a reflex to take in more oxygen. To me, chewing gum in class helps students to be awake. To me, morning classes are meant to be bunked. To me, wearing T-shirts and short pants in classroom is totally alright.
Who have attention span of 1 hour sitting quietly in the classroom? (except those really nerdy students). My attention span is only 30 mins max, after that i get restless. I think most of my time in lecture hall are spent on sleeping, or day dreaming, or studying by myself. I'll only pay attention if the lecturer is really good or the topic is interesting and important. Yes, now i no longer need to suffocate myself inside classrooms (hopefully in my whole life) anymore, woohoo!
"We don't need no education,"
"We don't need no thought control,"
"No dark sarcasm in the class room,"
"Teachers leave us kids alone!"