Monday, May 22, 2006

It's the final countdown!!!

It's exactly 1 week before the final university exam... We were given a 2 weeks plus break to finish studying 3 heavy subjects with heavy big books - Anatomy, Physiology and Biochemistry. So as it seems, every fellow colleagues of mine started their zombie-like life - wake up, breakfast, STUDY, lunch, STUDY, dinner, STUDY, sleep... What a sufferings, what a waste of life. Now then, i started to hate medical student's life, and i realise almost all of the doctors out there are nerds and stereotypes... I really really need to pass this exam, cz if i fail, i'll need to come back for a second chance - the Supplementary Exam...And if i still fail, i'll need to stay for another year to repeat the whole damn thing, which i dun dare to think about... So, i'd better study like a nerd from now on, just for this one month... Friends, please pray for me...

It's exactly 18 days before the World Cup - the beautiful game, the world's game, where every households are 'supposed' to sit in front of the tv watching football... But that's not the case here in India... Well, we a few Malaysians are goin to occupy the tv room all time, screw all the seniors who wanted to watch cricket, World Cup comes first!! After the theory exam, we'll have breaks between our practicals, and we'll never miss those important matches... Who do i support? England of course!!! Without Wayne Rooney? Who cares when we have someone like Gerrard who can strike the ball so perfectly...

It's exactly one month before we go HOME!!! Malaysia!!! I'll be back on 17th June(it used to be 21st, but my exam finish earlier), till 1st of Aug, bout 1 half month... Really can't wait for the time to come - to shop, to eat, to play, to meet friends, to rest... Well, before i think of home, i should concentrate on my studies for the time being, though i'd always dreamt bout it... Ok, it's time to mug again..

Monday, May 15, 2006

Everything's changed, everything's different...

Have you ever experienced that suddenly you're in a place you once been, doing something fun you'd long never do, together with your group of close friends you really missed, and out of a sudden woke up and realise it's just a dream? A sweet and old memory of you and you'll never hesitate to be there just once again, to experience those best moments of your life once more.. Well, i do have that kind of dream quite oftenly, and when i woke up and realise i'm alone in the room, i couldn't wait for a chance to turn back time and be back there again...

People says, '男人志在四方',which literally means "a man's ambition is all around the world"... A true man is supposed to go around the world searching for their ambition and get exposures, not holding anything back... I'd always find this verse inspiring whenever i'm depressed and miss home... Eventhough i'd been here in India for 9 months, i still miss many of the old places and my old friends ... Everything here is so different:
1. Food: still shitty though got used to them, really missed the variety of mouth watering Malaysian food.
2. Room: though more luxurious and have privacy ,but less fun-it's only me and my laptop, and books.
3. Friends: mostly studious and stereotype here; not that close compared to last time when we used to spend time chatting in the room, go out fot tea at late night, lepak in malls and play game in cyber cafe all the time.. This is how friendship is built, through fun and excitement, not by studying ownsleves in the room (that's why i miss my UITM frens so much)
4. Entertainment: my lovely laptop with internet and games and movies and songs, but one thing is that there's not enough dota kaki, boring... Beside, it's always i'm the only odd one when everyone is studying while i'm playing and relaxing, a fact that's making me more stressed up.
5. Sports: different kind of football here. I missed the futsal i used to play in UiTM; it's more to tension than fun playing football here with the seniors, it's like you have to run every moment and you can't do mistakes, what the heck??
6. Environment: dirty and much less inspiring, more to depressing to go out than to release tension, and i have problem 'loving' the people here.. I still think most of their life is 'cheap' by the way they live to let die. However, a mall had opened recently with pizza hut, hypermarket n cineplex inside, which is a boost though.
7. Studies: stress stress and stress. I really hate the studious life, hate seeing everyone locked in the room mugging the book and stopping all entertainments.. I wonder why medical school always wanted to produce stereotype and dull doctors, it's like they forced us into a life which aside from meals n sleep, every other time is meant for study.. Duh, stupid..

Well, there're certain things that'd never change, from last time till now:
1. Liverpool: still the lovely and romantic football team who shows the world how beautiful football can be, without dealing much with money and cheatings but with exciting football, extraordinary team spirit, great fans and fair play..The only difference is just that the team is stronger now, and even stronger it'll be...
2. Internet: really thankful i've got a good internet conenction here to update myself and to chat with my family and friends; Websites never change, they're the same no matter in which corner of the world you view them, and i cant imagine a life without internet with such exposure to the living world and connections to my fellow friends...
3. God, who's the same yesterday, today and tomorrow. I've had another perspective on God now.. I 'think', God is IN us, not out there looking at us.. He's always in us, but it all depends on which 'room' we put Him in, is it the biggest main room? or the small room at the corner? For me, sadly to say, had been hard to search Him in my heart now, i dunno in which room had i placed Him; i'd felt Him less, and remember Him less often... I tried to read His word, but it doesn't last long; i'd tried to go to church, but i can't wake up... Been really dried up, i think i'd become more a 'realistic' person than a 'spiritual' person..need help in prayers, really...
4. The image in the mirror- nothing much changed, still look young and handsome, hehe.. Maybe a year older, and it's not quite the same old me- though still lazy, rebelious, playful, and cool, but maybe a little bit more studious than last time, a bit more knowledgeable, a bit more foul words being said, a bit more bad tempered, a bit of language style change, a bit more realistic..

Environment changed me, though i'd never wanted to change... I'd always hope to stay young and enjoy whatever i want, and i'd wanted to change the environment around me(though quite success in some ways), but i'm still forced to change in order to live on (a evolutionary theory)... Time is tickling, life passes, people change, places evolve, but memory stays...
Obladi oblada life goes on brahhh...
Lala how the life goes on...
Obladi Oblada life goes on brahhh...
Lala how the life goes on.