I Want To Break Free

Malaysia to India
It had been exactly one week since i came back to India.. I came back 10 days later than all my friends, and had skipped a numbers of classes, but it was all worth bunking for the extra fun and food in Malaysia.. I had a very very enjoyable holiday. I met many many old friends this time and even celebrated Chinese New Year with my family which i had not been able to for the last 4 yrs. Of course it's sad to come back to again, but that's my calling, plus i have some extra reason to be back there as well, hehe.. On the very first moment i stepped foot on Mangalore, Indians had already pissed me off. What happended is that me and Hong Ling took a cab from airport to town. After dropping off her, i asked him to fetch me to my hostel which is only 1 km away, but this useless driver asked for double cz he said it's considered two different destinations. Of course i wont give. So i scolded him and only give him a small amount of money, not a rupee more, not a rupee less. This is Indian stupidity No. 1: Money-Mindedness

Mangalore pub attacks
2 days before i came back to Mangalore, there was a scary incident: 40 young men went into a pub near our college on Saturday afternoon and started beating up a few young Indian girls, slapping them, hitting them, kicking them like an animals, assaulting their boy friends, molesting them, all without any reason. The police arrested 23 of them. These brainless people are backed by the ruling political party of this state. 2 days later, all 23 of the violent maker was bailed out, without any charge. A more sickening thing is that a big bunch of crowd were outside the police station cheering for them, giving them celebrated ovation and flower rings. When interviewed, those fuckers still said they'll do it again if there's a chance and they do not regret their deeds. Even the Chief of the Police said he would have beaten up his daughters is she is found in a pub. The head of the attack group - SriRam Sena, said the girls deserved it. What the fuck!!! Which era are we in now? Is going to pub wrong? Is it any of your business? Where's the respect for women? Where is the law? What are all the money-sucking useless dumb ass police doing? Just few months ago, many churches are being attacked in Mangalore and many other places, then the terrorist attack in Mumbai. Now this violence against women. India is horrible, especially for us students who study here. No wonder India is still such a poor country full of useless people. Indian stupidity No. 2: Lawlessness.


Medical Postings
I am now in Final Year MBBS.. I passed all my 3rd year papers, really thank god.. Final year will be the most busy year, with 4 subjects - Medicine, Surgery, Obrstetrics & Gynaecology, and Paediatrics. All the books are super super thick. I'm now posted in Medicine in Wenlock Govt Hospital.. Before this, i was really hoping i would be posted in KMC College Hospital. I don't care if Wenlock has more cases, more, more patients, more exposure, more practical practices; i just hate to be in a stinky and dirty and disgusting environment through out my 1 and half month medicine posting. I have to change my shirts every single day, my lab coat twice per week because of all the urine smell stains plus all kind of pathogenic microorganism under the sky on my shirts.. Most of the days, i have to take cases in the hospital after my afternoon class and can only be back at night time. Imagine my day starts at 8am every morning and finish only at around 8pm.. It's shitty. Life sux. Besides, this semester is full of seminars, so occasionally, we have to prepare seminars to be presented in the lecture hall, means even more extra works at night.

Lectures
The lecture hall is another big let down. It's newly a constructed and enormous lecture hall, situated at the roof-top, and equipped with 2 projectors. However, it is not air-conditioned!! Imagine in India's hottest season of the year; from 2pm till 4.30 pm; Monday to Saturday; 250 students vs 1 single professor, after lunch... Of course, i will feel agitated, restless and sleepy. How do they expect the lectures to be effective and conductive? No way!! Some times, i myself will go to class with my short pants when every single classmates are on their full long sleeve formals. I know it's wrong, so what?! I don't even care. I mean, this weather is considered "summer" don't Indians have some common sense and allow the students to wear short pants and thin t-shirts? This is Indian stupidity No.3: STEREOTYPICAL

Slumdog
Friday night i went to watch a movie in theater with Caryn and Karthik - Slumdog Millionaire. Directed by Danny Boyle, it is a piece of gem crafted by the combination of Bollywood and Hollywood. It is a movie about a slumdog Indian, who is the lowest and most worthless class of Indian, made his way to win the game show "Who Wants To Be A Millionare?" How he did that?
A. He cheated
B. He's lucky
C. He's a genius
D. It is his destiny
Every single questions of the game show was written in his life experience, from small to young adult. His experiences guide us through the most comprehensive, real, shocking truth about life in India. The extreme poverty; religious fights; policeman's scariness and uselessness; caste system; illiteracy; urbanization, love. Everything is portrayed excellently well and impressive. Of my high movie taste, i dare say this is definitely one of the best movie i'd ever watched. It is very much similar to another of my all-time favorite - "City of God". The only difference is that "City of God" is more bloody and sets in Brazil. "Slumdog Millionaire" language is mostly in English, with some Hindi in the beginning. It won Golden Globe Awards, and was nominated for 10 Oscars, including Best Picture. I highly recommend this movie to every single one, truly a must watch!!



Hectic Final Year Life
My life have been really hectic and tiring in this first week in college. At night after dinner, i can only aboe to study a few pages, but i would prefer to just sit on my chair and stare at the laptop, listening to music and watching some movies. I don't even have the energy to study anymore. Food over here still sucks as ever after my tongue had been so accustomed to Malaysian cuisines. Weather here is scorching hot. My throat had been a bit of uncomfortable since i came. Besides, local Indians here are "stupid" and annoying. The political members here are all hopeless. Day by day, my temper gets shorter; my body got sicker; my shirts get dirtier; my intelligence gets lower my fashion sense gets worse; my humor gets lesser . I really can't wait to leave India. I can't wait to get rid of my final year of studying plus another year of internship here. Every minutes spent here feels like a year to me. The only good thing over here is my room; Caryn; and my fellow friends. I can't wait to fly away from here fast. God help me.