A sigh of relief and a taste of grace...

My A-level results came out today-Physics B, Chemistry A, Biology B;13 overall points out of 15... It does not seems to be a very good result, not even a good result anyway compared to other chinese here, as MOST of them get the full 15 :( ...Anyway, i really thanked God for it coz i expected lower grades, and i really worried about my future before the result came out... Well, i'll be flying to India on 30th Aug, 2215 flight to Bangalore, then the next day take 1040 india local flight to Mangalore, where i'll be studying... At last, everything is settled, and i just feel a BIG relief and peacefulness in me:) At least i do not need to doubt on preparing all my essentials to be brought there, and i do not need to face my friends in a unassured sense when asked bout my future... I did quite of my best in this exam, and i can only put all my worries on God after i did the papers, and by God's mercy and grace, i passed the cut-off point of 12 to pursue my future in India, to study medicine, and to become a doctor (wow)... I witnessed some of my friends who didn't make it to fly, and i really can't imagine if i was one of them... I'm not a serious 'studier', i played a lot, enjoyed too much, and took exams quite lightly, but luckily God gave me a wake-up call during my AS, and it helped me to stand up again stronger (though it's not dat strong in the end, but it's more than enough getting me to fly :) I'm really happy and relief now, which makes me come out at 11.30pm now to write this :) I promised to myself that i will 'really' study hard over there, coz medic is no simple thing at all.. i would not want to put myself into such a worry again next time, and hopefully, i'll keep myself up all the time and not be slack... May God make the path straight ahead of me, amen...

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My college life...

It'd been for some times since i'd been studying in 'college', to be precise 2 years and 8 months, n it's ended.. I'm now stepping into the 'university' level .. Well, there'd been lots of ups n downs throughout that time.. Getting out of the comfort zone to somewhere far far away (though it might not seems that far for some); beginning a new life; getting new friends; experiencing personal breakthroughs; finding your true self; breaking school rules; trying to be fashionably oustanding; attending prom nites; having crushes*wink* ; getting now a much wider point of view; realising the danger and cunningness of the society; having unforgetable mishaps; etc... Many would had experienced the same experiences i listed, i suppose; and this is the 'college' life it's ought to be, i presume :) I would like to share them now, but here i would like to focus mainly on "people"...

I'd been in INTI College, Nilai for 8 months, took 2 sems of SAM(south australian matriculation), but witdrawn as i got JPA scholarship to study in INTEC, Shah Alam, which i'll tell in detail later...I went there with 3 other local frens- Wei Ping(my roomie), Yoong Wearn, and Chiaw Ling... I do not struggle much to adapt to people, first of all i have few close frens with me, and secondly, new people came into my life just like dat, very easy n naturally, i dunno why, coz i'm not dat kind of ppl who would step up n say "Hi, I'm chee chung, can we be frens?", i am quite passive in this kind of thing, maybe people get comfortable with me all the time and they just come to me themselves :P I experienced my major spiritual breakthrough there... I mingled well in Inti Christian Fellowship; attended Ps. Chris Long's church in Banting( Grace Family Sanctuary), and more importantly, i get to know Jonathan Jong, my class mate n 2 months rommie... He's from Kuching, and he changed me quite much, from christian faith to musics, to movies, to knowledge, to attitude, and to thinking... I thank God for putting him into my life and made me a much more matured person.. I also got to know 4 other frens younger than me- Boo, Joseph, Bjorn and Kau Ren from JB, and they'd brought much happiness and 'insights' to me...They had been my companions for almost every dinner.. And another close friend there, Kok Chuan,but particularly wat we had in common is that we really really had a lot of 'fun' in computer games, haha...

Now, about the 2 year A-level life in INTEC, UiTM...Foremost, i would like to state that every student here are 'smart', yes, they're all SPM top scorers from the whole of M'sia, specially chosen by JPA; and by grace, i'm one of them too(including the 4 close frens from kuantan i mentioned above)... The name 'UiTM' makes ppl think about Malays, and yea, it's true, UiTM is only for Malays; but this is only partly true in the school of INTEC, coz we non-Malay carried 30% of the number of students in my year... Things are really uncomfortable in the beginning- strict rules like u can't wear shorts even in the compound of the hostel; ONLY Malay n Indian food around; loud Muslim prayers everyday... It's really hard for me,(and many ppl too) who came from a chinese-based Inti college to the malay-based UiTM... In the first sem i stayed with 3 other malay( there's only 4 of us in a house), and i had my second spiritual breakthrough when i'm questioned by one of my Muslim house mate, and that time i really struggled to defend christian faith n find fault of Islam, got depressed and had some kind of down period in my faith...However, i managed to get through it after much prayers and researches on the net... I got through it and am now much strongera and comfortable in my faith, but i wont tell the 'process'..Btw, i'm not 'finding fault' of Islam now cause i think there's too much similarity between Christianity and Islam, and i think there's oso a lot of truth in it; but ONE 'thing' seperates them is-- Jesus!!! And He make all the differences...(of which i'm not goin to describe in details)... I get to know a dearly brother, Zhang Zhi, from Sg. Petani... He's my roomie for 1 year; both of us attended Damansara Utama Methodist Church; served in Campus Alive together; watched and talked football; played games; and he's the one God put into my life to keep up my faith in INTEC... And also to add a tribute of fun to all my ex-house mates in the House 16-508( including Zhang Zhi)--Boon Yung, Chuan Teng, Jong, and Sky...It'd been real fun for us staying together, playing football and computer games, yam cha, travelled around M'sia, and did crazy things together... And ya, also my roomy for the last sem and my class mate-Adam Lim from Batu Mertajam... We had heart to heart sharings a lot, encouraged each other everytime we're down, and together experienced many ups and downs in life... Besides, a pretty and lovely good-friend of mine -Chew Ying, who'd been one of my closest frens to share my ups and down.. Also to 3 of my juniors who brought so much more into my life there- Lynn Xuan, Wei Sian, Michelle Lee... They are the active commitee of CA, the key-players of Superb-Six, and the sources of fun and craziness in CA, haha... They'd been caring 'sisters' of mine, buying me chocolates, giving their hands of help and prayers in time of need, making me Ginseng tea (this is particularly of LynnX), and lastly for all their companionships...

Actually, it is the heart of gratitude which suddenly moved me to write this, mostly about those who made an impact in my college life... I wish all the best to them...

Boring at home...

I'd been home sweet home for bout, ermm, 1 month... Things are simple and convenient back home, cause of my mum :P, hehe... I finished my A- level on 27th july, straight away went to Redang island for a 3 days trip with my classmates, back home again, then attended Psychology camp on 20th n 21st, back in hostel (thanx Zhang Zhi n Boon Yung, Chuan Teng n Sky for their rooms n beds), went for annual ALM grand dinner on 25th in Sunway Resort Hotel, and finally, back home again...

Home was fun and peaceful at first, but get more n more boring, coz most of my frens left their home town for studies abroad, and the main course- yam cha, is no longer existing for me here in Kuantan... Basically what i did so far at home was playing computer games, finished Hitman 3, now playing FIFA 05 for fun just to spend my time; online everyday till i've nearly run out of things to surf; read books, finished The Hobbit, now reading The Four Loves by CS Lewis; watch tv, not really following any series though, just to spend time, again; help parents do some chores, though most of the time reluctantly, hehe, but wat to do, they're still my dad n mum...

Actually i'd been having bit of emotional struggle deep inside, keep on thinking of the outcome of my result... A level results out in mid-august, worrying that i can't get the bench-mark of 3B's (though it sounds easy to many)... Worrying bout my physics, scared i really did badly... I'm scared of having back the feeling when i experienced when i get my AS result, it was bad... Whole of my future relies on the result, n if i 'flung', i can't fly to India, n consequently cant become a doctor, and JPA shcolarship will be taken away... However, i put all these worries n burdens to God, to Christ, coz He's in control of everything- my future, my career, everything.... I'd been praying non-stop this holiday, and through the times, i've learnt quite a lot, learnt to really have faith in God that He'll give me the best; to rely on Him alone; to believe miracles do happen in Him... It was hard when being confronted by my parents frens, "When are u flying?", Hey doctor Liu!!" ,ouch, i'm still worrying of my results and they assumed everything for me...

Anyway, i really believe i can fly, and i'm ready to fly (bought a big luggage bag, daily-used-stuffs, suit, n laptop).. I believe God will make me fly to India to pursue my future, coz otherwise he'll not put me under JPA... I trust Him!!! Hopefully He answers my prayer :)

It's 2.30 am now, i'm waiting for Liverpool match live on tv, vs Kaunas, champion's league qualifying 2nd round... There'll be a gathering of my Form5 class tmr, lunch in House of India restaurant... Oh, the match just kicked off..........