Sien...

It's Saturday night, i feel damn sien here...This afternoon had been playing PES 6 with Ramakrishna, such fun.. Yesterday had been out having fun wit Caryn for the whole day. But now MSN nothing to chat, no one to play game with, no movie to watch, no friends to talk to, no place to lepak, no Liverpool match, no mood to study, aiks, sien sien sien, Saturday nights in India sux..

Had been back to Mangalore for 2 weeks after one month holiday in Kuantan. 4th semester had started. Last sem's results are out, it was really really bad. (Shit, have to really get serious in studies, cannot skip classes anymore, and more importantly, must concentrate in classes, cannot sleep..) In this semester, we have postings for Pediatrics; Obstetrics; Skin; and Respiratory System, as compared to last sem's Medicine and Surgery.. Classes are as packed as ever, sien, hardly to take a breath and rest... Chinese guy friends here all sieness, always lock themselves in rooms, have not much things we can do together or share to each other now.. Had started playing football more often now, since Inter-class is coming. Had not playing my guitar very often, sien, dunno wat song to play... Aiks one word, everything feel so sien sometimes... However, most of my free time now are spent with Caryn- we go out and eat together, go shopping together, or just simply talk to each other...Thankfully she's always there to talk to me, to cheer me up, to take care of me, to cook for me, and accompany me out. But this sem onwards we have to go out less often cz we both had agreed to put study first, and to save more money too... Last sem we had been going out too often and spent too much, which is the main reason why we did so badly in our exams.. Nowadays, she'd been going to library very consistently, and sometimes i did study in library after class too... Hopefully we will have more self control and use our time more wisely.

Though it's only 10pm, but i'm feeling tired and sien, dunno y oso... Argh!!! There'll be no more holiday for us this year, so the next time i go back Malaysia would be next Dec. But hopefully, if there's free time around June/ July, i would like to travel somewhere, and my priority is Germany! (Hopefully have some company to go with me).. My holiday last month had been good and relaxing- good gaming experiences with bro, good food, good shopping malls, good weather, etc... However, one thing differ from last time is that i no longer feel sad when i come back India, i think it's mainly because Caryn is here with me... She's just 2 streets away back in Kuantan, and she's just one block away here in Mangalore, hehe...

New Year's Day

New year's eve is on Sunday, a bloody Sunday, where Saddam Hussein was hanged... I dunno him well, all i know is that he's a dictator, a radical Muslim, a man who initiated some terrorist attacks on Jews country. Other stuffs, i dunno, not that interested to know, and plus there's absolutely no way to get to know, because can u really trust the press? I absolutely don't think so, cause nearly nothing much is true in the press. This Saddam Hussein reminds me of the "Saddam" character in South Park movie, a dead Saddam who play homo with a character called "Satan" in hell, what a funny and notorious movie, haha..

Well, all is quiet for me, on New Year's Day. Stay at home, watch tv, online... Christmas was quite quiet as well, went to church for dinner and celebration, but we didn't stay back for countdown, stayed at home, and wished each other... Anyway, what matters is that at least i'm home for christmas and new year, to feel the warmth of family, to unite with the people i love, to be where i truly belong...

Well, 2006 had passed. And i think i'd changed a bit. My relationship with my friends back in Kuantan had become less intimate, as expected.(Well, cant help it, we all grows in a different environment now). Had not watched any movie back home, not interested. Did some shopping, bought some new cloths, new jean, new shoes.
Time goes by so slowly for me in India. Every hour is boring and hardly passed. However, my life in the second half of 2006 had been very interesting because of someone. Thank God He sent her. One thing 'significant' in my year is that i'd lost 3 handphones in 1 month time. Damn, lost my Sony Ericsson w810i when i sent it back to Msia for warranty; lost Mahen's Nokia 8250 in the auto; lost Rhema's Sony Ericsson z300 in the auto again... What the heck! Was so so pissed and feeling fucked up. I gave up on anymore phone and survived 3 months without a cell phone (Hooray! what an achievement, haha) I'm now using my old Nokia 7210, still very durable. Am still thinking whether to get a new white w810, had been dreaming of it for a long time, but could have saved that money for other better purpose, aiks, i really dunno. (i still need an mp3 player and a digicam, argh!!)
So now, my brief overall preview for year 2006:

1. Study: Well, passed my First Year MBBS.. Now on 2nd year, and things got tougher and busier. New lecture rooms, new labs, the whole campus of KMC is brand new now as the board earned so much from the students, especially the Malaysians.. New batch joined in, and we're upgraded to seniors, and people respect us, hehe.. Imagine ppl calling me "Sir Sir", syok-nya!!
New Year Resolution: To get 1st class in my 2nd year final exam in the end of year... Put more time in study...

2. Sports: Had not been playing much football in my 2nd year, because most of the time is spent going out with someone, hehe.. Never went to gym, cause i find it boring... However, one thing i'm glad is that i remembered my kungfu i abandoned long time ago, and had been practicing it regularly...
New Year Resolution: To play football more often, to be good and break into the first team of my class team... To practice more kungfu, to get stronger and tougher...

3. Games: Had not been playing much games since 2nd year, but still completed Faber. Played some Unreal Tournament 2004, Football Manager 2007 (won everything with Liverpool in 4 seasons, 620 points in Hall of Fame, woohoo!), and Pro Evolution Soccer 6 (no more FIFA for me). Now since i'm home and have ntg to do, had been playing some Dota as well, and finding out that so many things had changed, and i'd became a noob once again, aiks.. (feed and feed..) :(

4. Movies: I do not watch much movie this year frankly speaking. But the best in the whole year for me is Martin Scorsese's "The Departed". It is the Hollywood version of Hong Kong's Infernal Affairs, but Martin made it his own movie, his own style.. 2 thumbs up!!

5. Books: I'd read The Godfather, and Angels and Demons. I like both very much. Godfather is a classic thriller about crime, power, sex, and dark politics. The book and movies had impressed me a lot on behaving as a man. Angels and Demons is another book by Dan Brown, about Christianity, bout Catholics, but i really do think it is much better than the crappy Da Vinci Code. Am now reading The Last Don by Mario Puzo, continuation of Godfather.

6. Liverpool: Won FA CUP 2006 in a thriller final with West Ham! Aiks, we Liverpool fans were full of hope in the begining of the 06-07 season, because we have a much better squad than last season.(which we finished 3rd in EPL) But things are not as good as expected now. Already lost 6 games in the league so far. But one thing to be proud of still is that we are still in all 4 competitions, and there's still hope for everything. Bloody ManUtd are top in the league with 6 points clear, and are in super top form, bloody hell!!! Anyway, a great new year present Liverpool FC gave me is that they won Bolton 3-0, 3rd in the league currently, and both Manu and Chelsea slipped up :P
New Year Resolution: Hoping Liverpool to win at least a cup and ManUtd to fall, hahaha (evil laugh, cz i still think Manu squad is too small to win the league)

7. Spiritual Walk: Had been going church more oftenly (because there're more Malaysians? More chicks? haha) Started boy's cell group in my room, though sometimes do not feel like doing it, but still will do. Hmm, had not been reading bible oftenly. I'd tried, but it never last, i just couldn't have the discipline to read everyday. (Please pray for me)
New Year Resolution: To grow stronger in the spiritual walk with God. To expand the cell group, and hopefully, to make a youth concert, InsyaAllah.

Last but not least, hopefully this year will be a peaceful and wonderful year. Saddam is dead, a big devil has fallen... But what lies ahead? We do not know. Just hope everything goes out fine. May God bless me. It's a new day, but it's not a new life. Everything lives on... and on...and on...

"Yeah...
All is quiet on New Year's Day
A world in white gets underway
I want to be with you
Be with you night and day
Nothing changes on New Year's Day
On New Year's Day

I will be with you again
I will be with you again

Under a blood red sky
A crowd has gathered in black and white
Arms entwined, the chosen few
The newspapers says, says
Say it's true it's true...
And we can break through
Though torn in two
We can be one

I...I will begin again
I...I will begin again

Oh...
Maybe the time is right
Oh...maybe tonight...

I will be with you again
I will be with you again

And so we're told this is the golden age
And gold is the reason for the wars we wage
Though I want to be with you
Be with you night and day
Nothing changes
On New Year's Day"