A sigh of relief and a taste of grace...

My A-level results came out today-Physics B, Chemistry A, Biology B;13 overall points out of 15... It does not seems to be a very good result, not even a good result anyway compared to other chinese here, as MOST of them get the full 15 :( ...Anyway, i really thanked God for it coz i expected lower grades, and i really worried about my future before the result came out... Well, i'll be flying to India on 30th Aug, 2215 flight to Bangalore, then the next day take 1040 india local flight to Mangalore, where i'll be studying... At last, everything is settled, and i just feel a BIG relief and peacefulness in me:) At least i do not need to doubt on preparing all my essentials to be brought there, and i do not need to face my friends in a unassured sense when asked bout my future... I did quite of my best in this exam, and i can only put all my worries on God after i did the papers, and by God's mercy and grace, i passed the cut-off point of 12 to pursue my future in India, to study medicine, and to become a doctor (wow)... I witnessed some of my friends who didn't make it to fly, and i really can't imagine if i was one of them... I'm not a serious 'studier', i played a lot, enjoyed too much, and took exams quite lightly, but luckily God gave me a wake-up call during my AS, and it helped me to stand up again stronger (though it's not dat strong in the end, but it's more than enough getting me to fly :) I'm really happy and relief now, which makes me come out at 11.30pm now to write this :) I promised to myself that i will 'really' study hard over there, coz medic is no simple thing at all.. i would not want to put myself into such a worry again next time, and hopefully, i'll keep myself up all the time and not be slack... May God make the path straight ahead of me, amen...

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My college life...

It'd been for some times since i'd been studying in 'college', to be precise 2 years and 8 months, n it's ended.. I'm now stepping into the 'university' level .. Well, there'd been lots of ups n downs throughout that time.. Getting out of the comfort zone to somewhere far far away (though it might not seems that far for some); beginning a new life; getting new friends; experiencing personal breakthroughs; finding your true self; breaking school rules; trying to be fashionably oustanding; attending prom nites; having crushes*wink* ; getting now a much wider point of view; realising the danger and cunningness of the society; having unforgetable mishaps; etc... Many would had experienced the same experiences i listed, i suppose; and this is the 'college' life it's ought to be, i presume :) I would like to share them now, but here i would like to focus mainly on "people"...

I'd been in INTI College, Nilai for 8 months, took 2 sems of SAM(south australian matriculation), but witdrawn as i got JPA scholarship to study in INTEC, Shah Alam, which i'll tell in detail later...I went there with 3 other local frens- Wei Ping(my roomie), Yoong Wearn, and Chiaw Ling... I do not struggle much to adapt to people, first of all i have few close frens with me, and secondly, new people came into my life just like dat, very easy n naturally, i dunno why, coz i'm not dat kind of ppl who would step up n say "Hi, I'm chee chung, can we be frens?", i am quite passive in this kind of thing, maybe people get comfortable with me all the time and they just come to me themselves :P I experienced my major spiritual breakthrough there... I mingled well in Inti Christian Fellowship; attended Ps. Chris Long's church in Banting( Grace Family Sanctuary), and more importantly, i get to know Jonathan Jong, my class mate n 2 months rommie... He's from Kuching, and he changed me quite much, from christian faith to musics, to movies, to knowledge, to attitude, and to thinking... I thank God for putting him into my life and made me a much more matured person.. I also got to know 4 other frens younger than me- Boo, Joseph, Bjorn and Kau Ren from JB, and they'd brought much happiness and 'insights' to me...They had been my companions for almost every dinner.. And another close friend there, Kok Chuan,but particularly wat we had in common is that we really really had a lot of 'fun' in computer games, haha...

Now, about the 2 year A-level life in INTEC, UiTM...Foremost, i would like to state that every student here are 'smart', yes, they're all SPM top scorers from the whole of M'sia, specially chosen by JPA; and by grace, i'm one of them too(including the 4 close frens from kuantan i mentioned above)... The name 'UiTM' makes ppl think about Malays, and yea, it's true, UiTM is only for Malays; but this is only partly true in the school of INTEC, coz we non-Malay carried 30% of the number of students in my year... Things are really uncomfortable in the beginning- strict rules like u can't wear shorts even in the compound of the hostel; ONLY Malay n Indian food around; loud Muslim prayers everyday... It's really hard for me,(and many ppl too) who came from a chinese-based Inti college to the malay-based UiTM... In the first sem i stayed with 3 other malay( there's only 4 of us in a house), and i had my second spiritual breakthrough when i'm questioned by one of my Muslim house mate, and that time i really struggled to defend christian faith n find fault of Islam, got depressed and had some kind of down period in my faith...However, i managed to get through it after much prayers and researches on the net... I got through it and am now much strongera and comfortable in my faith, but i wont tell the 'process'..Btw, i'm not 'finding fault' of Islam now cause i think there's too much similarity between Christianity and Islam, and i think there's oso a lot of truth in it; but ONE 'thing' seperates them is-- Jesus!!! And He make all the differences...(of which i'm not goin to describe in details)... I get to know a dearly brother, Zhang Zhi, from Sg. Petani... He's my roomie for 1 year; both of us attended Damansara Utama Methodist Church; served in Campus Alive together; watched and talked football; played games; and he's the one God put into my life to keep up my faith in INTEC... And also to add a tribute of fun to all my ex-house mates in the House 16-508( including Zhang Zhi)--Boon Yung, Chuan Teng, Jong, and Sky...It'd been real fun for us staying together, playing football and computer games, yam cha, travelled around M'sia, and did crazy things together... And ya, also my roomy for the last sem and my class mate-Adam Lim from Batu Mertajam... We had heart to heart sharings a lot, encouraged each other everytime we're down, and together experienced many ups and downs in life... Besides, a pretty and lovely good-friend of mine -Chew Ying, who'd been one of my closest frens to share my ups and down.. Also to 3 of my juniors who brought so much more into my life there- Lynn Xuan, Wei Sian, Michelle Lee... They are the active commitee of CA, the key-players of Superb-Six, and the sources of fun and craziness in CA, haha... They'd been caring 'sisters' of mine, buying me chocolates, giving their hands of help and prayers in time of need, making me Ginseng tea (this is particularly of LynnX), and lastly for all their companionships...

Actually, it is the heart of gratitude which suddenly moved me to write this, mostly about those who made an impact in my college life... I wish all the best to them...

Boring at home...

I'd been home sweet home for bout, ermm, 1 month... Things are simple and convenient back home, cause of my mum :P, hehe... I finished my A- level on 27th july, straight away went to Redang island for a 3 days trip with my classmates, back home again, then attended Psychology camp on 20th n 21st, back in hostel (thanx Zhang Zhi n Boon Yung, Chuan Teng n Sky for their rooms n beds), went for annual ALM grand dinner on 25th in Sunway Resort Hotel, and finally, back home again...

Home was fun and peaceful at first, but get more n more boring, coz most of my frens left their home town for studies abroad, and the main course- yam cha, is no longer existing for me here in Kuantan... Basically what i did so far at home was playing computer games, finished Hitman 3, now playing FIFA 05 for fun just to spend my time; online everyday till i've nearly run out of things to surf; read books, finished The Hobbit, now reading The Four Loves by CS Lewis; watch tv, not really following any series though, just to spend time, again; help parents do some chores, though most of the time reluctantly, hehe, but wat to do, they're still my dad n mum...

Actually i'd been having bit of emotional struggle deep inside, keep on thinking of the outcome of my result... A level results out in mid-august, worrying that i can't get the bench-mark of 3B's (though it sounds easy to many)... Worrying bout my physics, scared i really did badly... I'm scared of having back the feeling when i experienced when i get my AS result, it was bad... Whole of my future relies on the result, n if i 'flung', i can't fly to India, n consequently cant become a doctor, and JPA shcolarship will be taken away... However, i put all these worries n burdens to God, to Christ, coz He's in control of everything- my future, my career, everything.... I'd been praying non-stop this holiday, and through the times, i've learnt quite a lot, learnt to really have faith in God that He'll give me the best; to rely on Him alone; to believe miracles do happen in Him... It was hard when being confronted by my parents frens, "When are u flying?", Hey doctor Liu!!" ,ouch, i'm still worrying of my results and they assumed everything for me...

Anyway, i really believe i can fly, and i'm ready to fly (bought a big luggage bag, daily-used-stuffs, suit, n laptop).. I believe God will make me fly to India to pursue my future, coz otherwise he'll not put me under JPA... I trust Him!!! Hopefully He answers my prayer :)

It's 2.30 am now, i'm waiting for Liverpool match live on tv, vs Kaunas, champion's league qualifying 2nd round... There'll be a gathering of my Form5 class tmr, lunch in House of India restaurant... Oh, the match just kicked off..........

Romantic Liverpool !!!!

I just can't hide my excitation on the dramatic come back of Liverpool, the football club i'd supported n persevered with since 2001, to win Italian giant AC Milan in the 2005 UEFA Champion's League Final in Istanbul... i woke up in the middle of night to watch it live though i'm having my a-level chemistry practical exam that morning at 8, and the sacrifice is well worth it :)

Before i even reached the tv room, loud cheers could already be heard from far, and it was the very 1st min that Milan captain, Paolo Maldini, scored from a Pirlo's free kick.. Shit, wat a big hit to Liverpool, i thought quietly... And in the whole 1st half, Milan's skill n precise passing totally outclassed liv, and there came the heart breaking 2nd and 3rd goals form Crespo, being set up brilliantly by Kaka.. It was juz total silence, the Kopz had came thus far against all odds after beating Juventus and Chelsea, and finally got outclassed by Milan...

I was about to stop watching after 1st half, i couldn't imagine Liv player's reaction in the changing room, but then i thought i'll watch the other maybe 15 mins, something might change, miracle might happen, n if Liv dun score within dat time, i'll sleep... There came in Hamann for Finnan, and Liv swithed to juz 3 defenders.. i was like, wat the fuck is Benitez doing?! They'll get thrashed 5 or 6 nil like this..

Anyway, miracle does happened... Liverpool captain, Steven Gerrard headed past Dida in the 54th min, and the 40,000 liv fans started to show the world wat they were there in Ataurk stadium for... Within blink of eyes, in the 56th min, veteran midfielder Smicer hammered home a long shot to the left corner of the net, and it's now 3-2... Already unbelievable. Finally, in the 60th min, Gerrard won a penalty!!!! Alonso steped up, got saved (shit), but he was the first to reach the ball again n slotted in to the roof of the net.. WALAU!!! Wat a historic come back of all time.. The match stretched through extra time, and in last 3 min, European Player of the Year 2005, Andry Shevchenko, headed a close range ball, but Liv's Dudek saved it superbly, but the ball fall back to Shevy's leg and he powered it again, but it was a save again!!! Another golden double-save of all time, this time performed by Liverpool's outgoing keeper, Jerzy Dudek!!!

And another add-on of brilliance in extra time: cramped on both legs in the extra time period, someone made some important last second key tackles which held the Milan attackers... Player of the Seaaon, Jamie Carragher, a Liverpool central defender whose carrier was revived in Rafa's revolution, performed many unflinching, unpretentious, n unstoppable character this season... There's no way in England will find another player so committed as he is... John Terry? No way..

At last in the heart-thumping penalty kick out-- Bruce Grobellar, a Reds legendary keeper in the 1984 European Cup final win against Roma, inspired Dudek for the "wobbly legs", which made the 1st Serginho kick fly high up; saved Pirlo's 2nd; and at last Shevy's spot kick!!! Wat is that? Dudek saved the 3 most reliable spot kick taker of Milan!?! Liverpool won in penalty 3-2...
The Reds is again the European Champion for the fifth time!!!! Five stars!!! 3rd most winner after Real Madrid(9) and Milan(6)!!!!

Steven Gerrard is here to stay!!! What a touching moment when he lifted the most valuable trophy in club stage... Hey Chelsea, money isn't everything!!! The skipper earned a Man of the Match display in this final, 3 roles he had took, and his never say die spirit n the impact on the team is just uncomparable... Lampard? Henry? Nah!!!

Last but not least, Rafael Benitez, the Spanish maestro in his first season here, lifted the biggest cup in just 9 months in charge... No big money, no big star players; never being arogant; does not hate the FA rules; cool, gentleman, and cheerful, and a master tactician, is unarguably the Manager of the Season... Fought back and killed Milan from 3-0 down in just 6 min!!.... Mourinho the special one? Haha, sau pei lar..

This is a miracle indeed, and they TRULY never walked alone that night, there was obviously some kind of divine intervention on the game.. God was working, and Liverpool is His favourite at that moment, haha... "You'll never walk alone... Walk on, walk on through the rains..."

During ALM dinner 04

Life's like a dream?

These words are penned by a Columbine High School student ahortly after the mass murder:

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings, but shorter tempers; wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints; we spend more, but have less; we buy more, but enjoy it less.

We have bigger houses and smaller families; more conveniences, but less time; we have more degrees, but less sense; more knowledge, but less judgment; more experts, but more problems; more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get angry too quickly, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too seldom, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.

We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values.

We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life; we've added years to life, not life to years.

We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet the new neighbor.

We've conquered outer space, but not inner space; we've done larger things, but not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul; we've split the atom, but not our prejudice.

We write more, but learn less; we plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait; we have higher incomes, but lower morals; we have more food, but less appeasement; we build more computers to hold more information to produce more copies than ever, but have less communication; we've become long on quantity, but short on quality.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion; tall men, and short character; steep profits, and shallow relationships.

These are the times of world peace, but domestic warfare; more leisure, but less fun; more kinds of food, but less nutrition.

These are days of two incomes, but more divorce; of fancier houses, but broken homes.

These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throw away morality, one-night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer to quiet to kill.

Those words are as insightful as they are scary. Why do we then live on since life is so cruel, so unfair, so insecure? Is that all life is, or does it mean other else? What's the purpose of us living here on this earth? Is life just about growing up, attending schools, playing games, getting frens, scoring exams, entering universities, getting a job, earning money, marrying, starting a family, having children, growing older, having grandchildren and finally--die?

What matter most when you die? It is not about how much possesions can you hold, how many certificates you own, or how grand ur funeral are... What matter most is that how many people actually attend your funeral and mourn for you, and more importantly, remember you for good...

Is there no hope in life? If the Bible can be believed and what Jesus said is true, then there is!! Jesus said:"I have COME that they may have LIFE, (not only that) AND that they may have it more ABUNDANTLY." Ponder bout this line which He'd said... Y not?? What if it's true?!

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I'm a blogger now!!!

I've a blog, yeah!! I've a blog now... At least i'm not "out-of-this-generation", and get to click with "BLOG--WORD OF THE YEAR 04"...I, as a student, do not think i'll have much time n ideas to write, or comment..but i'll try, hoping of becoming a part-time-journalist, hehe!! Well, at least this is a good start... Everyone is welcomed to view(thou quality is not assured... :P)